The beginning

Read an article on Abrahamic religions, and I learned Christian's perspective on the prophet Ibrahim a.s. As the article goes, Ibrahim is the first prophet to find God amidst polytheism through rationalism.  In other words, the prophets and muslims before him are likely to have submitted to God because of direct teachings, but of course God knows better. I'm just guessing. It's 3:30 in the morning.

If I have to give my opinion, I think I chose God out of rationalism. My parents are likely through heritage. My siblings? I don't know so sure. The brother just before me is probably heritage as well, but I'm pretty sure the two others after me are also through rationalism, even though right now they're still in their rebellious age. I used to accept God out of heritage, then God made me go through things that made me rationalize things out, to sort things out, and I found God again through rational thinking. It gives me the strength to believe. When I had it by heritage, I could still believe but it was largely blinded. I would deny everything else that opposed what I was taught. Even after I found God through rationality, I still had my heart partially blinded and I didn't see that. I knew something was wrong and didn't know what to do about it, but knowing God I prayed for the blindness to go away. Almost a year ago God gave me the experience that opened my eyes. Now I'm gradually opening, there are still blind spots but I've finally learned how to open up, and how not to open up too much. Just the right amount.

Personally I don't think it's wrong to believe in God because you inherited the believe. After all, God says so so why should I go against that decision? There are many people who chose to believe in religion just as how they chose to live defending their cultures and traditions. But I admit I like people who found, or re-found God after thinking thoroughly over and over again. Yes it's mostly based on thinking rather than emotion, but we have emotions as well. That's how it was. First I only had emotions, that was the time when I followed God by tradition. Then when I re-found God I had mostly thinking and lack of empathy. And last year I found God again with both. Looking back at me and people around me, and looking at how we grew up and how we changed, I learned how great God is at arranging this system and completing it without fault. The great thing about God's creation, humans, is that they evolve in not only physically but also psychologically! We do not do it on our own, we evolve thanks to those before us, our ancestors and the changes they brought about little by little, and of course thanks to God. I used to want things settled fast, for wars to end soon, but now I'm starting to understand the meaning of patience and experience. Isn't it magnificent how God created this world full of happiness and sadness, then life and death all for the sake of training us for the real world which is the next? What if Adam and Eve never ate the forbidden fruit and bred on heaven? No one would know the meaning of anger nor frustration. Some people think no one deserves to feel any of that, but if we could grow from knowing that, then isn't it a good thing?

Have you ever thought why God even bothered to create devils? In fact they were created before us, except that before we were created they were fairly nice fellas, probably. I find a lot of people nowadays, and in the past too, asking that if God is compassionate, why create calamity and destruction? Why give birth to tyrants and take away the lives of newborn babies in the most inhumane ways? A lot of us believers get questions like that, don't we. Isn't that exactly why we have the duty to spread out the word so that they would understand? They are searching, just like we were during those early days. They need to know what they should know. We have to tell them the hadeeth where God mentioned that if God wished, God could make all mankind and jinns become the pious among the pious. Or if God wished, God could give all mankind and jinns every single thing they wish for without God Hemself losing anything at all. On the other hand, God could also make everyone disobey and turn against Hem and still God won't lose anything. Somehow it sounds like beating around the bush, but they main point is the right to create good and evil is in God's powers, and God knows better. Haven't you heard of the stories of angels, how much they love God and yet God loves the prophets more? Just because someone can be happy, doesn't mean se can make someone else happy.

God is always making Hes creations happy through a way or another. Although angels don't ask for more, humans are always asking for more. But that's okay, to God it is a simple task, not even enough to be called a task even. Angels have no problem to coexist since they don't have desires, but humans do. Angels don't make each other sad, but humans do. The source of sadness and frustration is God Hemself, but humans are taught how to overcome it. Don't we have the joy of making someone else happy, a joy that no other creation has? It is a pleasure to be a human. Do you remember the story when God created Intelligence and Desire? I'm not sure whether this story is true or not, but this is how it went. When God created Intelligence, Se asked the Intelligence; "Who are you and who am I?" To this Intelligence replied; "You are God and I am your humble servant." Then God created Desire and asked the same question, but Desire arrogantly replied; "You are you, and I am me." Of course God knows beforehand, but still for others to learn God throws the Desire into the hottest of all hells for a thousand years, then asked the same question. The Desire gave the same reply and was thrown into the coldest of all hells for another thousand of years but still refused to give the right answer. Finally after se was thrown in the hell of hunger, se repented and admitted God's powers. Through hadeeths we learned that now hell is surrounded by things that desires like while heaven is surrounded by things that desires hate. But that doesn't mean desire will like the thing inside hell itself or hate the thing inside heaven itself. It is all up to us to choose.

Of course that doesn't mean we can't get married, have children, and eat like normal people. I don't know what the exact meaning of desire is, but there is no win against desire if we simply refuse to eat and sleep just because it is a part of desire. Our bodies obviously need those things. God has taught us that we need those things and we have to take those things except in certain circumstances. Another thing God taught us that in everything, too much will be poison. Too much food is poison, too much sleep is poison, even too much pray is poison. We are created with bodies that need nutrients and rest to live. Unless there's a good reason behind it, did you really think God will like it if we refuse to eat the fruits on the trees that we grew and let it rot just so we could fast forever and ever? We are meant to be fair to everyone, every single being, and our bodies need to be treated fairly too.

Have you ever thought what it means to love someone after being able to love and devote yourself to God? Learn to love and accept, it's another evolution.

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Have you ever been asked about "Fate vs Free Will"?

I haven't been sleeping for almost 24hours now, and won't be for at least another 18 hours. That should explain who I am. I had a 'rough' and emotional night, but I'm still steady. Also the media player has just changed to 'Trauma' by Ayumi Hamasaki, 元気つけてもらっちゃった。=D

I was conducting a last check-up on other blogs and this article with mentioned topic sparked my interest. Why? I think God wants to cheer me up and remind me of some things I've forgotten, but God always knows best. I just like to guess. After all, how can you be surprised if you've never guessed or expected anything? Life is full of surprises, and a lot more than that. It has laughter, memories, puzzles, and more. Another reason why I love God so much.

I'm gonna go surprise someone in 2 hours, and I need at least 1 hour to get ready, so we'll get on with this quick. Remember the last time when another persona mentioned to talk about destiny, then another popped out and cancelled the whole thing? No one was expecting yet so it should be okay, or better yet no one even remembers. Whichever it is, the result should still be the same if it's me writing. What is fate? What is destiny? And why does it collide with the fact of having "free will"?

The common question we get is; "If God has decided everything, how is it possible that we have free will?" or "If it's decided how can it be called free will?" You know. The such. That reminds me the last time someone mentioned being asked this question "Can God create a monster bigger than Himself, stronger than Himself, and then get destroyed by that very monster?" and he responded with: "There are those who can see God and obey God, they are angels. There are those who can see God but disobey God, they are shaitan. And there are those who can't see God but some obey while some disobey God, they are called humans. So why is it impossible?" To be honest, I don't really see how that answers the question. I have another respond for that question. It sounds like this: "Can God be cruel to His creations, for example us humans?" Ahah, you get what I mean.

Back to the question. Personally, the question about 'fate vs free-will' is like asking "How can God make 1+1 become 7 when no matter how you look at it 1+1 is 2??" That's how it is. It sounds so perfectly impossible, but being able to do mission impossible is what makes God God. Back then I used to ask myself those questions-that-go-almost-nowhere too. Something like "If universe's size is N by N by N equalling N-cube, what is at N+1?" (Sorry if you're not familiar with mathematical terms) But asking those questions only make me feel like I'm trying to cut a mobius loop into 2 separate loops. (Again with the difficult term, please make use of search engines) Now guess what I choose to do instead?

I choose to believe.

As an avid lover of God, I understand what God's attributes are. Kind, loving, great, knowledgeable. Understanding, yes! Otherwise why create laughter and comedy for our own little remedies? Remember the last time you laughed off something clumsy you did in front of your friends? Believe it or not, God was the one who planned that, knowing fully well you'd be relieved of some kind of sadness that came beforehand. Or the last time when you were thoroughly down and lost hope in everyone around you? At that time a beautiful scenery came before your eyes, reminding you that what you are facing is just a part of life and that there are so much more things that you should cherish. There are so many things that we have, it's just that we either forget about it or just haven't realized it yet.

What is the main purpose of questioning the meaning of destiny? I know some people are just curious, but I also know there are people who just want to blame God for whatever they did, saying "God already decided I would sin, what could I do?" It's tough to just imagine such absurd thinkings exist, but it's reality. That's another quality I found interesting. Notice that moment when angels asked God; "Why bother create humans who would cause chaos and destruction when You already have us who never cease submitting to You?" And God give this really mysterious (at least, to me it is mysterious) reply; "I KNOW WHAT YOU DON'T KNOW." Notice how the answer wasn't just about humans are better or there are some humans who will be really cool and respected by angels? What God said was that God knows what angels don't. Of course there are mentions of our being created is solely to serve God and to be the caliph on earth, but what I mean isn't what we are supposed to do. What I see is there's a purpose in our creation, of course not for God because God doesn't need anything from us. It could be for the angels, they sure learned a lot from our prophets, or it could be for the djinns. Who knows? God knows best. I'm just expressing my hunch. Probability is too big, I'm always in awe.

I choose to believe that God knows best about what destiny is and how it works, so I will just leave it as it is. I decided to quit asking the difference between destiny and free-will. Now I see that there is no point arguing over that matter, because regardless what the outcome is, what we have to do is still the same. We still have to pray, we still have to prostrate and fast. Yes maybe some people need explanation on that debate so that they could strengthen their faith, but isn't faith about believing even if there's no proof to back it up? Here I ask you, can you still believe in the Almighty God when one day science without fail proves that prostration causes prostate cancer, and that fasting causes brain death after 70 years? At that time, people have a few choices to do. One of it will be to believe in science and start doubting religion. Another would be to oppose and say "Science is a lie!!" and keep on being devout, somehow. But there will also be people who would say "If science says so then so it is. But that doesn't have any effect on my faith." Now that's what I call faith! Even if the world, even if science turns against you, don't lost your faith in God! I mean, what is the purpose of having faith in God if you do it based on science facts? And science is obviously still young. You sure don't see any thermal sink that completely absorbs heat, but God can do it effortlessly. (Argh, pardon the scientific term again)

Did you know thousands of years ago, maybe millions, there was a sadistic guy with a faith that most of us would be surprised of, taking into consideration the condition and development of humans psychology at that time. If you can cross time and go back to the past and meet your great grandfather, try asking him "Do you believe that people will be holding small plastic boxes to their ears to talk to someone in a different country across the sea?" Yea I'm talking about handphones. What would your great grandfather say? Now this guy here, he was way, way a person from the past. He knew he was a gangster, so he went to Moses and asked if he was going to hell for being so. Moses went to God and back to the guy and asked him something like this; "Can God pass the Earth through the hole of a needle?" This is what the guy answered; "Of course yes. God can pass the Earth through the hole of a needle without even having to make the Earth smaller nor making the hole bigger." And Moses said; "You will dwell in heaven." See how great faith is and how great faith should be? Of course since then the guy repented and became pious. And did you know there was another pious man who asked Moses if he would go to heaven. Moses gave him the same question, but the pious man said it was impossible, thus he became an inhabitant of hell. Even after being warned of hell, that man just simply refused to believe in God's ability and turned away.

Now see what faith is? It's so beautiful.