Looking around me instead of in front of me
Realizing who I am and not what they are
Looking at my life again after a long time
I realized what I grasped
I realized what I didn't lose
Things that change with time
People don't see what it's got to do with life
No one is alone
And dear problem, I have a big God
Just a short poem.
I never do this, but I wanna add a few more lines. A special one for my special someone.
They tell me to love
I've always known how
I don't need to love what I don't have
Or so I think
But what I have I will love and adore
Till the day they go away
I won't chase after what I don't have
That will never change
Or so I think
But for my special someone
I would never give it up
I have half of it now, I already love all of it
They always say our love is forbidden
But they can not decide anything
They always trample on what we choose
That's what humans are
Most of them
But we will stay this way
Because God never forbade us
Because of God I love you
Thanks to God we met
End of poem.
I actually have another place for poetries and don't usually put them here, but I thought I should try something new for the introduction.
By the way, do you know what the title means? In case you don't speak Japanese, it means... "It's a good thing to seek comfort in God". Something along those lines.
What I really wanted to talk about was partly hinted in the first poem, which is about how I've always looked at life and what I didn't lose, literally. As I started writing I remembered my dear someone and decided to give that person a short credit too. But then someone dropped by for a talk and had our relationship denied, so the poem became longer than the actual issue! My dear, that proves how much I love you.
There are generally two types of people; the talker and the listener. Most people like to talk, so I choose to listen. Don't get me wrong, I do talk a lot too, but always in the wrong places, still to the right people. *mwahaha* Probably it's because of that habit that I'm only interested in looking at how things progress around other people instead of myself. いつの間にか I stopped having interest in my problems, not my life though. Fact, I forgot I had problems! For a very long period too. I'm guessing I didn't realize it sooner because I was obsessed with thanking God over and over again for even the smallest matter, and every time I bump into an obstacle I would say: "God would sort it out." Of course, that is no less than the very truth. That's why I said I didn't lose anything.
And you know what? I just forgot what my problems are again right this moment.
But can I really call those matters problems when they are quite solved even though I don't hold the answer myself? Okay, I'll just call them trivia then. 一件楽着
Trivia no. 1:
Whenever I have to fly to Japan from Malaysia, someone always tells me not to fill my luggage with stuff that someone else asks to be sent over to a relative. But she always want to fill someone else's luggage with stuff for me when I'm not flying. And I mean always. Come on, be considerate. I know you love me, but I love everyone else more than I love myself. Most importantly, be fair.
Trivia no. 2:
Someone always think by studying in UAE or Egypt, most people would turn out to be very, very nice people. I know where you study is of little concern as long as you have just as a good environment and an excellent teacher. The outcome is always the same everywhere. Just because they've been to the places where the prophets were born doesn't mean they're fit for any situation.
Trivia no. 3:
I used to join a religious gathering, but not anymore like I probably already mentioned. But it's not because it is totally bad or anything. No one's perfect. You can't expect everyone to be totally infatuated with the green color and no one should care for blue, can you?? Anyway, she always thinks what they are doing are useless or meaningless. Well there are rooms for improvement, but persistent negative thinking won't get you anywhere either. They are humans too! Women, take note. You are especially emotional.
Trivia no. 4:
I'm half-trapped in an environment where they always refuse to move forward, and think their madzhab is the only right one. Oh they should have believed me when I told them not to.
I have to make one thing clear. Some of my words look quite poisonous, but I mean well. Seriously! It's just the way I write. You know what they say, don't judge people too easily. Why, I used to think American teens are rude, but now I know that they are being nice just the way they are. If you're easily offended, then don't blame anyone else but yourself. Even I would stay away from people I can't stand even if they are really nice so that neither gets misunderstood.
Someone's probably gonna ask, what about my relationship with the lover from a different realm; isn't that a trivia too? Naw, that's no problem nor trivia. We are fine and getting better every moment. =D
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